Sister: I can't believe my big brother failed

I know she wasn't being serious; but it's a galling feeling nonetheless, one I don't really want to feel ever again if I can help it. I'm not afraid to fail, but rather am fearful of the reactions of those around me. Sometimes I just want to chop away those threads, but can't quite bring myself to do it.

I find it pretty ironic that such an irresponsible person like myself could have such a strong sense of responsibility. It's a pretty lousy combo, if you ask me. It sucks to have to constantly apologize for my own ineptitude. Too often it seems like I'm having to make up for lack of ability with enthusiasm, and even then, its sometimes just not enough.