It's not as simple as flicking a switch. Things won't change so easily; merely because you say you will.
Even knowing that, let me go out on a limb and say this: I swear I will. I'll put in the time and effort, I won't give up. I'll do it as long as it takes to get it right, and then somemore. Cause I really don't want to think about the consequences if I don't.

There's no need to say more. Hopefully this topic won't have to recur.

Aside, I read this interesting article about voluntourism today. Go take a look.